I want to play the guitar and wear bright lipstick and talk differently and eloquently and I want people to know that I beat to a different drum. I want to be seen as Jesus by someone and I want to live life as He did. I want I want I want. how vain. I want I want I want.
Knowing that you like him so much that you would do anything for him to like you back. Knowing he doesn’t like you back but still leading you on. Knowing that no matter what it won’t work out but you still try. Knowing that he is a total jerk but you’re still willing to deal it. Knowing that you can probably have his best friend but you chose him instead. Knowing that in the end he will screw you over. Growing up to believe you don’t need a man was a good thing, little did I know part of life is needing a man. Knowing that is the worst thing to know. Independent is where I want to be. Knowing that I want to be independent is the first step to knowing a better life without him.
I don’t pretend to be captain weird. I just do what I do.
I wanna be your girl, and spend this life with you. <3